Friday, 22 July 2011

可以吗?

谁可以来让我倾诉我的一切..我很怕..我一直认为我有能力熬过去..可是..现在不是我用功努力的问题了..是我怕到半夜都会吓醒..坐在床上一直哭..我真的很怕我考不好..我无法胜任...我一直相信这一条路是对的..可是直到昨天..我的头脑一直想一直想..我越来越怀疑..我越来越害怕..
我本是想责怪你..为什么要为我决定一条这么难的道路..难道就没有其他的选则..以后可以link出国..可是我懂我没有理由去怪你..所以当我想和你分享我面对的一切..你为什么要那样说..我真的没有想过你会讲这种话..所以我不会再把我的事情告述你..对你...我要永远的沉默..所以你现在对我说鼓励的话...抱歉..我连一句都觉得很不开心!!!....
我明白没有东西是容易的..要成功..就要付出代价..现在的我很害怕..是不是我付出了..就一定可以..那一本一本厚厚的书..我看到真的觉得很困...我有时在想如果我去help读..他也是一样难...我就可以把我的努力和梦想连接..A level我真的看不到他和我的未来有什么关系..可是我已经没有回头的路..也没有理由去说早知道这3个字...只有不断的努力..看看最后的成果..
                              对上帝要有信心..道路有多难走..祂会是我们随时的帮助..

我真的可以坚持到最后吗?..我真的可以每天不断的读那些厚厚的书?..我真的可以每天都在做练习吗?...TT哭完了..又再一次刚强起来!!!..

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

21 june ^^

Finally my mpw presentation is over..hooray!!!..happy!!!..actually this is not the time for me to happy right now..after my mpw classes..i will start my a level classes..haha..that must be a time for me to study hard..i wan be the top student same with baba..^^...This week i will go for a trip in port dickson..i dun have any excited feel..but i know i got excited feel to go back to my hometown kluang!!..hehe...^^
 wow..this is my cute daughter..pigpiglet..i love it so much^^

How am i going to achieve my AIM!!!...so many thing i wan to do..and it take a long time if really din care it so much..i wait for too long..i dun wan to envy people anymore..i wan be the ONE tat....i know tat..hehe^^
I know i am envy so many people..before that i am not like that..i believe in GOD..i strongly believe that GOD will prepare anything that is suitable for me..but now i am back to the fomer!!..i scare i will a bit to hate myself..i am the one who want to baptise soon..but the meaning for this is lost..how??..i scare this religion is only the practice..not from my heart sincerely..even now i am lazy to Pray..i am very scare..
Gambateh for life..never give up..my belief..my a level study..my AIM..my dream..myself!!!!...^^

currently like this girl so much..hehe..she is from the korea group Miss A..suzy and the actor of dreamhigh..this girl is so pretty and cute..i like her hair colour..and i have the motion to dye my hair to this colour..but my friend said dye this colour will spoil the hair..and i dun think this colour will suit my skin colour..because i am so dark..TT..haizzzz..

Friday, 17 June 2011

improve ENG^^

Today my post will be using English..Although my english is so poor..super terrible grammar mistake..but now i want to improve..i want to learn..i dun like english music..now i want give try to enjoy eng music..i dun like eng movie..but i want watch..Begin from now..because of my cambridge A level..because i want to go oversea to study..i want many thing!!..i want give a try to speak eng proudly..loudly..!!!..
taking a 38 picture with  my little piglet ^^..haha

since a long time din write anything in blog..because of LAZY to update..hehe^^
Now i am quite enjoy with my new life..new AIM..i meet all my new friends..they are good and quite nice to talk..before enter inti..i scare i am alone..i scare i cannot have fren at here..but with GOD lead..everything is going on very smoothly..cannot say that is very smooth..because the most important things haven come true..hehe..start from JULY..my a level lesson will be start..that will a busy life for me..many people say that a level is so difficult..hard...dun care about that..just keep on going..strive..will be a suceess..

Next tuesday will be the presentation day for my mpw..actually..i have a bit afraid..This is the 1st time i will speak eng on the stage..wearing a formal attire..hehe..it is quite exited n fear..haha..
 An unhappy thing is that...inti life make me FAT..because of my burger meal..my kg increase..TT..haizzzz..so now i would like to have self control..hehe..because i dun wan be a fat fat girl..i am so short!!!cannot FAT!!!!..
Next month i am going to participate a CAMP..i dun know why i am so happy and exited with this camp..hehe..this is the 1st time i participate this type of meaningful camp..hehe..it is call hungry30..lol..^^
so this coming holiday..i have a special JOB to do..hehehe...everyone which want to donate money to poor people and show your concern to this society..please come and see me..!!..i will help your..hehe..

Sunday, 29 May 2011

season^^

之前的blog因为忘记密码而进不去了..所以现在create了新的account..开始时是很伤心的..累积了这么多么用心去写的blog..不能再接下去..讲真的..我很难过..可是试了很多次..还是进不去..
就当作是一个新的开始吧..^^...很多的不舍得..可是也没办法了..
再一次的努力创造属于自己的每一天..去珍惜..去拥有..去奋斗..去争取..每一天的快乐与幸福..我会努力的把回忆用文字来记录..以前现在未来..想永远的回忆..
The changing season of my life取之于我的人生每一个季节..我的生活..我的人生..
不断的努力的过每一天的生活..aza aza fighting...